Not to go to the drs for a few weeks?

[CinnamonVanilla]

I had a breakdown four weeks ago. I am still recovering. Progress has been very, very slow... I am struggling. As such; I am constantly in psychiatry appointments; which tend to touch on my abusive childhood and are quite traumatic.

I am 28. I have, slowly, been getting embarrassingly incontinent. I leak small amounts of urine, randomly. If I need to pee; I need to pee now. And; more worryingly, every few days or so, I bleed a lot when I pee. A lot. It was bad last night; like a period over the paper. It stops immediately after.

I've done two urine tests; results show no infection. I have had surgery previously to tighten my urethra; but it was over ten years ago and I don't know much about it.

Is this okay to put off until next year? I'm struggling with the idea of going back... I feel like I'm falling apart again. The pressure is unreal.

Any thoughts?

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Well done for keeping up with psychiatry appointments.
If you are bleeding when you pee you should see a doctor. I know that's probable not what you wanted to hear.
If it's the exact surgery that makes you anxious you could try a walk in centre and see someone else instead maybe?

If you are bleeding a lot when you pee that’s not something that should wait - it needs checking out asap. Try and focus on the fact that if you see someone about it now you will have got it over with and won’t have it still hanging over you in a few weeks time. Take care of yourself but don’t delay getting this checked.