To have had enough of it all

[tinymeteor]

Nothing dramatic. Just the sheer bloody grind of parenting small children. I'm tired. The baby is a shit sleeper and won't take bottles so I haven't had a deep sleep for 8 months. She feeds round the clock and it's never been pain free. I've had mastitis a dozen times. Her older sister started school this year and it's been a long half term so she's knackered, run down and clingy. DH is pulling his weight but I'm so tired and pissed off I find his every move annoying and am constantly fighting the urge to take it all out on him.

I know it will pass. But I'm tired and Inam so worn down by it all. It's 5.30am and the baby is standing up in her cot crying, again. There's nothing wrong with her. I just want a rest.

Things will get better, are you a SAHM? I was for years and I felt so low. Lonely and sad and my son was the shittish sleeper in the world! Life is lonely with young kids, I wrbtvto every baby group even though I hated it, but it did save me as it gave me a chance to wear make up and dress nicely. If I stay at home in leggings and a t shirt it really makes me feel rotten! The sleep thing will get better, or you just get used to it. Sorry I can't help more.

YANBU. The first year is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, I’ve only got 1 child though. You’re a whole child braver than me!

Is the child under warranty? Have you considered getting a refund or replacement?

Yes SAHM at the moment, though not by choice. In between jobs and the opportunity I'd been looking at for Feb just fell through. Don't have the time or energy to even think about applying for things at the moment. So that's contributing to the sense of suspended animation.

Ha! If I could get an exchange I would. Pref for a nice dopey one who sleeps 8 hours and doesn't spend all day trying to walk (yes, at 8 months, she's a freak). I can't take my eyes off her for a second or she'll pull up to standing, stride boldly forth and face plant onto the nearest toy.