To feel completely useless

[HeffalumpsDaughter]

Since dc2 was born 3 years ago I have suffered with a variety of health problems that are getting worse and worse. I have no official diagnosis, currently working under an unknown autoimmune something which I’m having multiple tests for but not actually getting any better.

It’s at the point now where I can manage to get out of bed for a couple of hours a day. My dc2 started crying yesterday as he was tired and wanted a carry upstairs and I just couldn’t do it . Dh works away mon-fri so I’m here all by myself.

I have to put dc2 in nursery 3 days a week as I just can’t do anything with him. I’m thinking I’m going to have to up that to 5 days as the days he’s with me we go to the park for half an hour then I need to lie down and spend a couple of hours sleeping and vomiting.

This isn’t what I wanted from my life. There was so much I wanted to do with my family and I just sit here puking and sleeping. I don’t know what to do.

That sounds so tough... If your DH2 is in nursery, do they offer an EHA (Early help access iirc) they can put you in touch with different agencies who may be able to offer more support?

I did one with my child earlier this year when I was struggling with MH and it was a god send

I haven’t tried accessing anything like that tbh. Dh is a high earner and I feel like I’m taking the piss a bit trying to get help. I can afford a cleaner by my house is too embarrassing for me to get one round. My aim for this week was to try and tidy it enough to make it acceptable for a cleaner to come round. All I’ve managed to do so far today is vomit on the carpet then crawl to the sofa and MN.