AiBU to go off sick even though I’m not sick?

[TenerifeSea]

I have complex health problems but have been determined to remain working, although I’m part time now. I’ve had a few short periods of sickness this year but this is to be expected with my condition. I had a set back and I’ve been told I need a serious, complex operation which will put me out of work for a few months. I’ve had similar, so I know the deal. I know it’ll take a few months before things will actually be it into place.

I’m emotionally struggling with this info. I can’t sleep, I can’t focus, I’m tearful. I want to go off sick. I’m not depressed. I know depression, as I’ve had it before. I’m just completely and utterly distraught.

WIBU? I’m sure my colleagues think I’m a massive flake and totally unreliable but I love my job and I’ve had positive feedback in my reviews and I have a good relationship with my manager. I could hand in my notice but I like my job, I’m good at my job and it’d crush me emotionally to have nothing at all. Am I being a twat?

YANBU
Sounds like you'd be able to work once you recover from the OP, but you aren't coping now
So, do hang on to this job if it normally suits you.

I recommend you discuss with your GP about when you can have the OP
and also get signed off for your MH, as it sounds like you need rest & time to come to terms with this setback

Anxiety depression or stress

You should go to the GP and discuss how you feel... I expect they will suggest some time off but they might not. Maybe taking it out of your decision would be a weight off itself?

Maybe I am depressed and lying to myself.
I feel guilty putting pressure on my colleagues and disappointing my clients. :(

You can't pour from an empty cup . See your GP and get some support. Sounds like it's long overdue if you've been trying to carry on as normal bless you. Time to take care of yourself now. Hope you feel better soon.

I'd say you've had a big shock that is a type of mental problem different but equivalent to depression or anxiety, your doctor would probably call it stress or anxiety and sign you off for a few days to recover.

I would go to see a dr and discuss how you feel.

Personally, if I can attend work I will as would much rather call in sick for when I'm really ill, especially if it affects my record.

Even with conditions that absences are sort of expected with, if a sickness record is really bad they can still follow formal procedures.

I’ve booked a GP appointment and told myself to keep struggling through another few weeks and re-evaluate in the new year if I’m no better. Had an exhausting day at work and wasn’t at my most productive but still managed quite a bit and I’m glad I went.