To tell everyone to FTFO?!

[sadkoala]

I don't know what's wrong with me. This is the 3rd day ive felt this way.
I've not been able to get on with anything in the house, it's a tip, DS(1yo) keeps pulling everything off the Christmas tree, trying to eat everything go in all the cupboards and generally wreck everything, thats when he's not trying to climb on me, tug on my clothes or cover me with his snot and saliva.
I've barely managed to put the weekly shop away and do the dishes apart from which my day consisted of throwing food at the DC's and hearing their whining and dealing with their moods.
It's nothing particularly new (apart from the tip the house had turned into and I just cant sort it) and I'm used to dealing with DC's but for some reason I have been literally raging, I might have as well been foaming at the mouth when making dinner and I just felt like telling them both to FO and flipping out. I've actually had to stop and make myself a chamomile tea because I realised that this doesn't feel normal and tried to calm myself.
(Obviously I haven't let on to the DC's Buy I can't remember the last time I've felt so furious)
I just want to go to bed and sleep.

DP has been trying to be considerate and asking me what's wrong these past 2 days and I've said I'm just feeling pretty crappy and the house is getting on top of me To which he tells me how we all need to pick up after ourselves - like I don't fucking know that. It's gotten to the point where were just kind of cold but polite to each other.

But I just really can't actually pinpoint what's causing this foul mood.

Anyone?

You sound knackered and in need of a break. Can you tell your DH that you’re struggling right now and need him to step up for a bit? Do you have family who could help you get on top of the house or take the kids for a bit and give you some time to yourself?

Knackered. Weather grim. Perhaps you've got a cold coming on.

DP needs to get on top of things and let you have some rest.

I'm not coming down with a cold as I would feel it (IKWIM). It's just I'm not really dealing with anything else than usual and I do get fed up and tired from time to time but it's just the sheer rage and fury that im feeling is what concerns me.

You sound like you could just do with a bit of time to yourself. Tell your partner you don't know what's wrong but you just feel stressed and everything seems to be getting to you. Would you be able to have a day to yourself, maybe have a sleep, get out of the house on your own etc. A bit of time away might make everything easier to face. Do you have family who could help you for a day or two.

I think this time of year can be very stressful for many people. If it continues, do go to your GP and talk it through.

How old are you and when is your period due? Could be hormonal issues, perhaps the start of the perimenopause if it's not 'just' PMT.

Pregnant? Changed contraception recently? Stopped caffeine or sugar? Not sleeping properly?

It is getting worse because you know there is a mess to sort out and you need a break. I know this feeling.

Can you find a way to just get away for a night alone and sleep right through and do nothing the next day?

Get all the crap that is lying about that needs putting away and shove it into boxes depending on who it belongs to and just put your own stuff away. Tell DH to sort out the rest because you have had enough.

It's just I'm not really dealing with anything else than usual and I do get fed up and tired from time to time but it's just the sheer rage and fury that im feeling is what concerns me.

Could it be hormone related. New pill or PMT. I used to feel really angry for no particular reason and it was a week or so before my period, then it would just disappear. Some months were worse than others. I was probably between 18 and 21 at the time, I don't get it anymore but I do sometimes feel more anxious at this time.

Hormones. Im like this most of the month.

I think PMT is on the horizon but I have never EVER felt like this before PMT.
Like I'm furious and in a rage and I feel it but I don't know why everything is making me so angry. It feels very abnormal.
I'm mid 20s.

Prepare for the mother of all periods in that case! Hormones to the max.

Def arrange a break for yourself, even a few hours away from the house and kids. And catch up on sleep if you can see a way to

I could have written this tonight.

Ditto small child pulling tree to shreds, actually smashed something tonight, obviously doesn't do it on purpose. One dc nearly broke his arm through sheer clumsiness. Other decided homework is for the weak and mounted a 3 hour challenge about it. I couldn't keep my shit together and stay calm so kept walking off and saying mummy needs some time on her own for a bit (well, being climbed on by baby as you say).

I don't think it's bad for kids to know that adults get stressed you know, and that you model to them how to handle it.

But yeah also, hormones. Someone recommended me evening primrose oil and it was the worst - made me feel so bizarre!

Aside from hormones I’d guess cabin fever? Or SAD? Or an unrealistic expectation of Christmas with a 1yo? Or maybe you’re just burnt out.

We're living the same life OP. My DH has been away working for a week and in that week the kids, the house, life in general descended into total crap and I was climbing the walls and in a massive rage. The kids were unmanageable when in a normal state of mind I could've coped with them but I've just hit my limit. DH is home now and he is having the kids all day Saturday and I'm leaving the house from dawn til sodding dusk. No idea yet what I'm doing but I do not want any child climbing on me or whining and I won't give a toss about the house. We all need a break. Please take one yourself. Xxx