to feel overwhelmed and to think i'm going to fail because of this

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I have my postgrad exams next Monday. They're pretty indepth science-based topics with formulas etc to remember. I'm very anxious normally so I always start assignments when I get them - on my research I got 80 just gone, and this is worth (50%) of the module. The exam is the other 50%. So i started revising for the exams at the beginning of November and seem to have made a good attempt at learning - but everytime I go back to it I realise I have a mountain left to learn - how much is too much to know?

I am in a very heightened stressful period. I am recovering from PTSD from a violent relationship last year and have had depression for as long as I can remember. I have panic attacks every 2 days.

One of my sisters is pregnant and having troubles about the baby's health and so on. My other sister is anorexic and has just split up with her partner (codependent) meaning I have had to go and stay with her. I am worried as she is suicidal and she is always needing someone to be with her.

My parents are both unhelpful. I have had to commute into university for this term because of financial issues and have been living with parents who are abusive to one another. When I travel I stay in random hostels which add to my PTSD symptoms as I fear sexual assault (I know its irrational) but I have to do it because of money.

Alongside these events, I have also started self-harming again and hearing voices.

I am so overwhelmed with life at the minute. All these events going on around me make me feel like I am just about keeping my head above water. I physically feel like i am going to die and part of me wants that too.

I love my sister and I need to look after her but I also want to pass these exams - which I don't think I can do when looking after her and myself.

AIBU to talk to someone at uni about this or would they laugh at me ?

Talk to them! That’s what Student Support are there for, and it sounds like you need some support. It’s ok for you to get help as well as you helping others.

They absolutely would not laugh at you. You have so much on your plate! Do you have a personal tutor or pastoral representative? Speak to them in the first instance and they can make recommendations. I hope things get better for you soon

Please, please please speak to Student Support at your University!

That is absolutely what they are there for and they will have procedures and systems in place to help you. Have a look on their website to see if they have an in-house mental health support service (most do now).

They will not laugh at you, they will be relieved you are asking for help before the exam, rather than after when not as much can be done.

Speak to student support, that’s what they are there for! Your exams should test your ability in the subject, not your mental health! My DS has an anxiety disorder and his uni has arrangements in place so he sits his exams in a separate room as his coping mechanisms are distracting to their students (pacing,tapping, pen clicking etc) and if at any time he feels himself becoming overwhelmed he can stop the clock for a break to try to calm himself before it develops into a full blown panic attack. He once took 4 hours to sit a 90 minute paper! Their ongoing support means that he’s set to get a very good honours degree which he rightly deserves

Another one suggesting you talk yo student support and also possibly your personal tutor. You may be able to qualify for mitigating circumstances or additional help/support