To struggle with Christmas colleagues

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So everyone at work is excited about Christmas.

I absolutely fucking hate it. It highlights to me what a fuck up i am. My eldest dd suffers from anxiety and our relationship is strained. I am newly diagnosed with bpd and basically this means everything i touch turns to shit. I am trying hard for dd2, she is 13 and excited about Christmas. My mum is in poor health and that os a whole other thread. I am just about managing.

First working day in december and the chresy christmas songs are on a loop. It makes me want to jump in front of a train. Seriously. I get emotional and tetchy but obviously cant impose my scroogeness on others.

I dont know how i will manage the whole month.

No advice, OP, but just wanted you to know you’re not alone.

Every bloody year....

Is it Christmas songs playing in a shop or your colleagues playing music in an office etc?

If the latter could you maybe have a discreet word with your manager and ask them to tone it down, even a little bit, or maybe until the week before Christmas? I’d go spare if my colleagues were playing Christmas music on loop for a month!

Bakedbeans - it is my boss that puts the bloody shit on. I dont mind the odd time but when my anxiety is bad i struggle to listen to any music. Christmas music is like psychological torture

Och that’s rubbish x it’ll be over soon :) xx

Is it a job where you could wear noise-cancelling headphones?

Screaming - if only!! Thankfully it did abate after monday so not too bad.

I am now trying my best to get in the Christmas spirit .