WTF is wrong with me???

[Justkeeepsmiling]

I just need to rant really,

I cant stop crying, I have been like it for weeks, Ive no one to talk to, not really, My mum is one of them that thinks you can just shake it off and gets frustrated/annoyed if you dont or cant so I dont talk to her about how Im feeling, my sister is all about her, so just dont bother talking about anything with her. I feel so lonely, I mean proper alone. Ive got kids and a job, so I suppose I should be thankful, but I just cant shake this constant sad feeling. I usually love Christmas, but this year I just cant get my get into it, I havn't even bought a present yet. Whats wrong with me, Why am I like this?? It feels like I am going crazy

Ok so you’ve talked about your kids and your family and that you ‘should’ be thankful but something is making you feel sad, what is it?

You don’t sound crazy. But you do sound depressed. Sometimes everything gets too much, especially this time of year when happy family Christmases are being pushed down our throats. Could you go to your GO for a chat?

@TeddybearBaby My "boyfriend" left me for the wife I never knew he had, I cant seem to move on from it, the messages he and his wife sent me after it all came out keep going round in my head, the conversations we had together before I knew, and what he has said since.I cant help but think he has said what he said because he has been found out and he took the easy route.Its not only that thats bothering me, its everything that goes with it, I feel betrayed,stupid and gullible. I just feel so alone. I hate it. Holding everything in all day and putting on a brave face is exhausting.

Samaratins won’t judge and you can talk about anything.

I get everything you’re saying. You’ve had a terrible shock. It’s not easy to get your head round. Time is a great healer (cliche!! Sorry!) and in the meantime focus on things that make you happiest. Counselling really helped me - that was a bereavement but you are suffering a loss just he same and a whole load of other crap unbeknownst to you. I’m sorry you’re feeling so exhausted with it all but it sounds like you’re doing a great job of recognising what is upsetting you and that’s half the battle x