I feel pathetic and self absorbed

[LEMtheoriginal]

I have anxiety and im freaking out over a simple medical procedure im due to have. There is 99% no problem but im convinced there will be and i am really not coping.

I need to put my big girl pants on and get it done.

That isnt the issue though. There are people around me whose lives are literally falling apart and i am walking around anxious as fuck and feeling sorry for myself.

I cant shift the anxiety from the pit of my tummy and i dont like myself very much just now.

Can somebody please hand me a grip

Have a grip.

And let yourself feel the fear for that minuscule amount and the push those negative thoughts away.

You’re allowed to feel frightened even if it’s irrationally so.

You’ll be fine. What makes you feel good? Have a bath? Have a nice drink of something? Listen to a headspace?

What are you having done? I got myself into a right old state about a dentist visit last week. I came out after the treatment cursing myself for being such a dick about it and having a miserable time in the lead up to it.
I think it’s the unknown, I’d never had this treatment before so didn’t know what to expect.
Bastarding anxiety rules my life sometimes and I hate it.

I would hand you a grip but I also require one. I see it as a massive deal just to walk 5 minutes down the road to the shop. Good luck OP, what’s the procedure? Someone on here might have had it done and can talk you through it (myself included)

I dont want to mention the procedure. Im not worried about that but the dr said oh while were there we'll check x. But im trying to convince myself its routine. My GP was surprised and assured me its jyst a thorough private consultant. (Still NHS but chose and booked at private clinic as it was quicker if that makes sense.

I also did a really bad thing today and made somebody feel upset. I mentioned i saw her ex and it turned out it was a terrible situation that left her with mh issues. I didn't kniw - i just thought it would be an "oh that wanker" type convo but it wasnt and i felt so bad. Now im fretting that i have really upset this person because ive got a big mouth and no tact. I want to message her and apologise but i don't want to bring it up again for her. It was really bad.

I am not a nice person. I have some trivial issues in my life and im all me me me me. Fuck

Ok, now I’m lost ...

Waffling is my speciality. Sorry.

Also im sorry that you are struggling with anxiety also. I don't mind sharing my grip if you want to share x

Thanks LEM, I’ll happily share a grip with you x

I went for a colonoscopy a few months back, you would have thought I was going in for life saving/ending surgery so I do understand

@LEMtheoriginal you weren't to know about your friends ex. That's not your fault. Stop beating yourself up

Washhand - that would have litrrslly fried my head. No way id be brave enough for that.

I am going to have to give mysrlf a stern talking to.