Job interview/I hate myself/I feel stuck

[Foodislife]

I'm going to get flamed here but I don't have anyone to talk about this really. I have recently namechanged but some of you might recognise me from a previous post months ago.

I left my job in July. It was a mutual decision by me and my employer. My role was a private childcare provider and a came and my previous employer decided that it is time for me to go as kids have grown up and I have been wanting to change careers. It was all well and I'm glad that we managed to agree on it so well.

Since then I have been not working. I have been working on my diploma course which is soon to be finished and looking for jobs. Like crazy. I sent out at least 40 applications of not more. No luck so far. Constantly working on my Cv and cover letter and portfolio, it's as good as it gets I think.

I have been approached by a recruiter about a position in London. I'm not currently based in London but been looking for jobs there as there is not much happening where I live. I would be happy to rent a place Monday to Friday and work there. My partner owns a property where we currently live. I pay him 'rent' for living here which is fine! I don't expect him to tell me I can live here for free. The job the recruiter approached me with payes around 25k.
It's not enough for me really but perhaps somehow I could make it work.
The things I need to pay for is
Accommodation in London
Travel
Rent for my boyfriend
Food
Phone bills/tax car/insurance etc
I would say this would come to £2000 per month
I suppose I could rely on my savings and live off that to make up my salary to £2000 but not for long really.
I'm a bit unsure about the job as well. It's the right industry but it's more of an administrative position which is not what I'm looking for. I'm confused and not sure what to do. Also hating myself for not finding a job yet m. I feel so lazy and useless and don't know what to do

Oh yes and another thing is they want someone to start within 2 weeks. I just feel so scared

If you’re renting in London, don’t pay rent to your boyfriend! You can split weekends between his and yours and just have two places, essentially. But no way should you be paying him rent if you’re only seeing him at weekends.

The job might not be perfect but is it a stepping stone? Will it lead to things that suit you better?

It's not ideal but you might be able to make it work. However, I fully agree that you shouldn't be paying 2 rents!

It's utterly pointless using your savings, what happens when they run out?

What's your diploma in? You're the opposite of lazy and useless if you're applying for tons of jobs, you've just not had a break yet. Sounds very very stressful.

*unless it's short term to get you experience etc, good point!

What sorts of jobs have you been looking for locally? How much rent are you paying your boyfriend (ie what’s your minimum salary if you didn’t move)?

I wouldn’t move under those circumstances. I’d look for a stop-gap job locally. With Christmas coming there could be lots of temporary/short contracts out there.

I should have said
It’s absolutely horrible being unemployed and looking for a job.

I don't know I think my boyfriend thinks I'm not paying for him enough anyhow. I pay around a third of all house expenses (so mortgage +bills) and we share the food costs.

I don't know how I could say to him I'm not paying you since a lot of my things would be here?! He hasnt said anything, been fairly supportive but I think(rightly or wrongly that he thinks I should have secured a job by now) Its so hard and I'm not coping very well mentally. This job I suppose could be a stepping stone but I am not sure if it is the right one and I really want one where I can succeed. It's too quick 2 weeks to sort rental and move and what if it doesn't work out . I literally have no ide of what I am doing