...depression.
Ive been suffering a lot recently. It comes and goes. One day I’m ‘normal’, the next I’m off on one. Or I could be fine one moment then something will flip in my head at something that appears trivial to most, then I’m ‘gone’. I don’t know how best to describe it than that.
I have rung my GP to make an appointment but they can’t get me in for a fortnight and only at school run times.
I have no support in life whatsoever (bar my husband but he doesn’t know the big picture and I can’t talk to him yet).
I want to talk to my friend. I want to tell her what’s going on. She knows somethings up, I was cold as ice with her yesterday. She doesn’t deserve that, she’s only ever been good to me.
I’ve told her I’d like to talk to her later but how do I even start that conversation? Apologise for being cold yesterday then try and keep going? She’s got some pretty big stuff going on with her at the moment and I don’t want to trivialise that at all as it’s quite a big deal. But I need to tell someone and I trust her of all my friends.
I also don’t want to scare her as I’ve had thoughts of ending everything and I hate myself for it.
How can I best tell her? I don’t know what to do. I have until 3pm to work it out.