I have a lovely husband, two healthy and happy children, and a reasonable job that pays a decent salary. This is pretty much all I've ever dreamed of. However I'm on a mat cover and the job will come to an end next year - I'm starting to look around for new roles. I'm comparing myself to my friends who all seem to earn SERIOUS money in similar sphers, and it's getting me really down. I'm frustrated that having two kids has led to my career stagnating whilst my husband's role has flourished (nb he's brilliantly supportive, generous with time and money and does pretty much his fair share around the house). I'm bitter about the impact a family has had on my earning power but also the fact I can't take a job unless I can finish at 5 and guarantee flexiblity around my family.... I want to see my kids before and after work, and that rules out lots of jobs. I'm essentially learning that you can't have it all AND IT SUCKS. But from the outside, it looks like lots of my peers have managed it.
I think I need to be told that I'm being ungrateful and need to give a ton of thanks for what I already have, but for some reason I can't shake this feeling.