Aibu to be scared and constantly worried

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I'm currently nearly 7 weeks pregnant. I've had two mcs this year at 12 weeks and at 7 weeks.

I spend my whole day worrying. I can barely sleep. Which obviously is not good for me or baby. If I have no symptoms I stress. If I have symptoms I worry I'm imagining them. For example I've felt really sick and retched a lot today but I worry I'm doing that to myself rather than it being a real symptom of that makes sense?

I've booked a scan for Friday when I should be 7 weeks and 2 days. Is that too early? I just want to hear that there is a baby and that it's growing as it should. My first mc baby measured a week behind the whole time and my second they said they couldn't see anything then that night I passed the sac. Sorry if that's tmi.

I don't even know what I'm posting on here for. I guess maybe some reassurance that other people have been through this. I seem to read about people having 3 mc then getting treatment or referral. I don't think I can cope with another loss.

Sorry that's meant to say Wednesday not Friday. Friday I have my first Midwife's appt.

I don’t have any advice, I’m so sorry - I just didn’t want to read and run. You poor thing, I totally understand why you’re so worried. I hope someone can ease your mind xx

It's such a scary time. I had a mmc at 11 weeks. And was terrified in my next 2 pregnancies.

Did have an early scan each time but waited until 9 weeks when there would be a heartbeat and more to see. Didn't want to scan too early then worry until 12 weeks.

As you know there's ultimately nothing we can do to change the outcome. Try to think positive. Try not to analyse symptoms.

Good luck x

@user1473878824 thank you :-) one thing that all this has made me realise is the kindness of strangers over the internet.

@MadeForThis I feel like the whole excitement etc has been wrecked for me I'm just so nervous. Hopefully we will see something on Thursday, I'm trying to set myself little targets for now!

I am sending you massive hugs

Fingers crossed you get the reassurance you need on Wednesday. Look after yourself in the meantime. Keep warm, watch rubbish TV, read light hearted books.

@user1473878824 thank you 😊

A pregnancy after a mc is tough. I told myself that I didn't do anything that caused my miscarriage and I couldn't do anything to prevent another as long as I didn't live recklessly. I was lucky that I only suffered one MC though and I had ds1 to distract me through my pg after MC.