Wanting my life back?

[Avalaura]

Lately I've been feeling very down and teary. I have 3 kids and no partner. I don't get any time to myself except on the night and I can't exactly go out anywhere to enjoy lifem my friends don't bother me even though ask them to do things. And my close friend has now got a partner and does everything with him. I feel so alone. I don't have siblings just parents who aren't very loving or caring. I dont know what to do. Everyone boasts on social media about what they're doing and I'm stuck at home 24/7 except when I go out with the kids.
I'm so miserable

Try the Mush app I've found it really good for finding "mum friends" also see your GP it sounds as though you're depressed. Maybe try and open up to your parents if you feel you can? They might not realise how you feel and could give you some support?

Do you have any money to hire a babysitter sometimes? Or maybe you could fine some time before childcare pickup?
If neither of those is an option maybe make a friend in a similar situation and swap childcare. Wr all need some time to ourselves.

Are you able to work?
If you can, it'll be good for your self-esteem, get you out of the house and away from the kids, and can be useful for making new friends.
Alternatively, try single parent groups on FB, Gingerbread and Meet Up. They may have some in your area.

How old are your children?

Can you do some online learning? Give you some strings to your bow?

Gingerbread always used to be the popular one for single mums with dc

Do you have any other friends who you could say come round to mine with wine and I'll get us a takeaway?

I am starting a course next year in a few months, and I am able to work but I just feel lonely at the moment. My friends never turn up when I ask them to anymore. And I had to end a friendship with one because he was a guy who was being too flirty so I backed off and he put a load of lies about me on fb. So i blocked him and deleted fb cause I felt my friends were just being nosey on fb but not bothering with me ajd posting stuff about going out with their partners all the time.

Maybe vary your routine and see if you meet new, more interesting people? Think about your hobbies/ interests, are you able to make more time for these?
You say your parents aren’t very loving or caring, can you get any baby sitting out of them? Often crap parents can make decent grandparents.
Never mind studying in a few months, there are loads of free online courses now, eg. Futurelearn. I’d get on there, find a course or two and join in forums!
I and many on here have been there, bored, upset and lonely. It won’t be forever.

Thanks I'll give it a try and defo making new friends too