To ask how you know if it's a breakdown or a bad time?

[CinnamonVanilla]

I'm having some work issues at the moment. They appear to have triggered my bipolar; which has been dormant for 8 years. This feels somewhat different, though.

I cry, endlessly and at anything. I have an urge to run away and be by myself, where nobody could find me. I have no interest in anything, very little and spurious appetite, and I cannot sleep for longer than an hour and a half. I am worrying about anything and everything (losing my mind, global warming, politics, falling over, nothing logical...).

I feel like I am falling apart. I'm still at work - 8am to 6pm I'm putting on a poker face and trying to behave as "normal" as possible, and deliver things for a project deadline in 5 weeks... although "my part" is finished at the end of today.

Is this normal for a bad time? I can't see a psychiatrist until Tuesday despite begging...

Bump; just incase anyone can help

I’m not sure I have very much practical advice to give you other than there are always support lines such as Samaritans that you can call in the meantime.
But most importantly I’m here or rather we’re here. Happy to chat and listen.
And sending you massive hugs and sympathy.

Sounds a bit like anxiety to me though I am def no expert. It's probably too late to get signed off work for a week or two. That would give you time to do nice stuff for yourself, walking, exercising, reading, meditating, mindfulness. To see if you can get over this hump. Being at work probably isn't helping.

Yep, normal, sounds like a mixed episode?

What can you do to keep yourself safe over the weekend? For me it's mindless TV (really mindless, nothing political or nasty or anything that might trigger you) and everyone leaving me alone. Conversations set my brain running again.

Look after yourself, and if you do feel unsafe don't be afraid to call 999.

I think you will know if you step away from work for a few weeks and still feel the same.

I felt the way you do a couple of months ago , I reached a certain point and decided to email my boss and ask for support , I then got a two week fit note. In those two weeks I started to feel human again.

Please ask for help op. You can't carry on the way you are.