My partner and I are visiting one of his friends and wife this weekend. They live quite far, roughly 4 hrs from us. It's more of a trip for my partner as he made plans with his friend and I'd be sort of just killing time with the wife. Who is lovely btw, we're not friends but she is fairly easy going and can have a chat with her. We'd be there for 2 days, the wife has got work on one of the days and my partner and his friend already have plans what they want to do. And that's absolutely fine. It's something my partner has been excited about and I'm happy for him to do something with friends as he's been working his socks off. But ... I think he invited me because he felt he had to. I don't feel particularly welcome. I mentioned this to him a couple of times and he said it sounds like I don't want to go. I'm genuinely quite an awkward person, say the wrong things at the wrong times and I think my partner is often ashamed of me. I feel anxious already about the whole situation. It's hard because I'd need some reassurance from my partner that he would like me to go and that it will be fun. Instead I got a 'Do you want to come? And if you do just bear in mind me and X are doing this and this on the weekend ' at least he's straight forward I suppose... it's tricky though as we don't do much together. Don't really go on 'dates' anymore or out for a drinks. I always nag my partner (which is probably the worst thing I can do ) of what we should do on the weekends etc but he always says 'I don't know' He never makes plans with me and that hurts pretty bad. I have told him this but he'd just snap back saying I don't come up with anything so what's my point.
Bottom line, here is the weekend coming up. We could have a couple of days with his friends or I could just stay at home on my own and he can go on his own. What should I do ?