To cry myself to sleep?

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Honestly it's been a fucking shit week, with so many lows that I don't know how I've even made it through.

There has been two deaths, both of them children in my circle of friends, one of which I can't even speak about to my closest friend as she's pg so I don't want to freak her out.
Also today was the first time I've seen exdp in almost a year after having a fairly good relationship, which turned very sour very quickly for reasons I don't want to go into right now. We ended up rowing and resolving none of what needed sorting, I'm sat at home upset, angry and anxious while he's snuggled up in bed slagging me off.

And to top it all off I've lost my fucking purse with everything in it, including my last £50 that I withdrew yesterday to buy some shopping.
I've had enough so I want to curl up in a ball and cry.

That sounds like a shit load to cope with. Sending you good wishes. And

you deserve these. In the circumstances I think crying yourself to sleep is sadly warranted, and hope some good news comes your way tomorrow

Oh my, I'm so sorry you're having such an awful time. You have made it through though, and you will continue to do so. Things won't always be this shit. Sending you love and strength right now though

That sounds awful. So sorry. Hope things look brighter in the morning, but grief takes a long time xx

Thank you, I know losing a purse is something so small in the grand scheme of things, but my god I'm gutted only because I don't know how and where I could have lost it.

oh op I'm so sorry, its hard to be positive in these situations but what comes up must come down.
I was feeling low today and I listen to Matras, their are a few on youtube they help I think.

I mean what comes down must come up. It will get better for you

I’m really sorry that this has been your life lately, I want to reassure you that things will just have to be better tomorrow than they were today, maybe not hugely given the shock of two children’s deaths, but the rest will kind of sink into the background in the coming days.

Cry, let out all the shit feeling, hopefully you’ll wake up feeling a bit better.

Are you ok for shopping?

What an awful week  things will get better op

Are you ok for food? Do you have family that could help for now. I have been in your position, not the horrible other stuff but losing my purse with my shopping money in and no way of getting any food. My Mum who is not well off at all helped me bless her. I have messaged you.

I'm hoping they get better and I'm sure they will.

hungryhippo I can't even describe what I feel about those poor children, I am close to one of the dm, but only know the other through a friend although we all go out together sometimes, my heart is breaking for both of them.
I've got enough bits in the freezer that i can throw things together, so my dcs won't go hungry. I also need petrol as my car is very low.

Oh I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time op
I read once when you feel overwhelmed with sad thoughts going round in your head it helps to concentrate on you physical body for a few min. It has helped me since and gives my brain a bit of a break when it's all too much.

sounds terrible OP, I am so sorry. Very sorry about the children! The only good news is that a day like today, can't happen very often in one lifetime, so you're already set to have much better days ahead!

Doesn't help you now but sleeping does, as does cuddles with your dc. Hope you get past this terrible time quickly and you find your purse! Maybe think about when you last had it, and all the places you went after that? Maybe you left it on a counter when purchasing something?

Thank you all again, I'm going to try and get some sleep as I can barely see my screen.

I haven't been to any shops today, I left home got in the car to go to work, left work picked up my dcs then went to go shopping, it was only when I went to pay I realised I didn't have my purse so thought I'd left it at home this morning, came home and it wasn't here.
So I have no clue where it could have gone

I really need a cuddle, one of those safe strong arms holding you tight cuddles

How's everything been today?x

I found my purse, it was wedged under the seat in my car so I'm relieved about that.
Now I just have to deal with all the other stuff.

I'm just off to my friends now to help her with some funeral arrangements.

Ah so glad you found it!

I hope it's gone as okay as it could tonight.