In wondering wtf is going on with my brain?!

[goatherders]

I've suffered depression but not for about 15 years.

Everything is going really well in my life, I've never been happier.

I've woken up today with absolute, crushing depression. I can't stop crying, I feel like everyone hates me and there's a rising panic that's making me feel like running away. Everything looks bright and weird, kind of like an aura before a migraine.

Why on earth could this be happening?

I was meant to go for breakfast with my in laws this morning and had to cancel. Dh thinks I've lost the plot and I feel like I have to be honest.

Does anyone else get these out of the blue, seemingly causeless feelings?!

Hi Goatherders,

That sounds really scary.

Do you think it could be something like a migraine- that is just making you feel down at the same time? Would it help to have a little sleep? Is there any chance that it is hormone-related? Maybe book in to see the GP this week?

That's nice of your DH to decide you've lost the plot rather than helping you!

I'm sorry if this sounds rude but the one time that I feel a bit like you are describing is after drinking the night before but I guess you would know if you normally feel this way the next day anyway so that's unlikely!

Try not to assume that it's going to carry on like this- you might just be having a bad day and things might be back to normal tomorrow.

Did you drink last night?
I always get this after a night of drinking, even 2 or 3 drinks affect me.

Thank you both!

I did have a few glasses of wine last night! Maybe it was that. I quite often do though and don't feel this horrible desperation.

DH just thinks I'm being snarky to get out of seeing his family I think.

They're hard to deal with on a good day, the way I feel today I'd have ended up running out of the house in tears I think!

Maybe I'll try to have a nap. I've been bear hugging the dog and crying for 20 minutes, at least she's being nice!