I so fed up. As I said in a previous thread I did my back in on Friday and pulled a muscle and was in agony. I have been given tramadol and diazapan which is knocking me out.
My husband this morning is accusing me of not doing enough.
Yesterday morning he did park run so was out for a good hour and a half, in the afternoon he went to collect something and was out for 2 hours while I sorted dinner. Last night he said he needed some space and went upstairs for a hour while I sorted mine and DS tea.
In between him coming back from dropping something out and him going upstairs for space I went to lie down as I wanted to get comfy and was totally knocked out. I was up for 3 hours and then was rung as asked to come down as DS was playing up. He then disappeared upstairs. When I came up I was angry and told him DS had his his tea was all ready for bed and to get on with it.
The thing is he has been getting worse and worse with my disability as well which is unrelated to this. He throws things when he gets mad or hits a wall or rips the T-shirt he has on in two.
I try to talk to him but it’s all my fault he gets angry. He said yesterday I managed with DS on my own and then ignored him when he came in and I should have stayed up in the afternoon and spent some time as a family. He will be useless with DS today so I have not taken any painkillers as all so I will be more alert (in agony but alert). He also got mad because in the time he was out I package up some things I was sending on eBay which I did sat on the sofa. He said if I was fit enough to do that I was fit enough to do other things and there was not need for me to go and lie down.
I am at the end of my teather and just want to leave. I have no money, I only work 5 hours a week due to my disability. My mum and dad won’t have me. We are also tied to the house with a morgage. He had said if I go I will be an unfit parent due to my disability. I am so trapped