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[cushionsgalore]

At the beginning of this year we started ttc. I got pregnant within a month and we were ecstatic. Imagined Christmas with a new baby etc. I even bought a little Christmas onesie. I lost the baby at 13 weeks.

We grieved but I tried to tell myself this was just bad luck and happens to a lot of people who then go on to have a healthy baby.

I got pregnant again about three months later and lost baby at 6 weeks this time. After this mc we had sex once. Amazingly I am pregnant again (so no period since mc). I'm currently 5 weeks I think but it is hard to date due to last mc so I'm going by when I think I ovulated plus two weeks, hope that makes sense.

My symptoms last week were weirdly strong! I was feeling nauseous and boobs hurt on a night. This last two days I've had nothing. I have peed on far too many sticks and they are all strong postive.

I am (sorry for the language) shitting myself. I'm so ready to be a family. I keep going into the room we want to be a nursery and crying. My parents and younger siblings are so excited to be grandparents/ aunties. I haven't told anyone I'm pregnant again as I'm so afraid. I also feel super guilty because what if all is okay and I never really got excited for this baby???

Please tell me your stories so I can gain some perspective and hopefully reassurance. I'm stressing myself to bits. I found some greys in my hair today (I'm only 27) and I genuinely think it's due to the stress of this year.

Please help xx

Bump for you op. And wishing you all the best with ttc

No words of advice but fingers crossed this pregnancy works out for you OP.

I suffered 2 miscarriages in between my first and second dcs.
I had no problem actually falling pregnant but after the second mc I assumed that I couldn’t actually carry to full term. When I finally fell pregnant with my second dc, I suffered with HG and ended up in hospital with severe dehydration, they booked me in for a scan and I was 7 weeks at the time, I honestly thought at that point that they wouldn’t find a heart beat, I couldn’t believe it when they did. We still didn’t tell anyone until our 20 week scan though as I was so worried that I would miscarry and couldn’t face that heartbreaking conversation again. It wasn’t until quite late on in the pregnancy that I actually started to get excited as I really didn’t think it would happened.

Thank you for the bump and kind words :-)

@Pimmsypimms that's exactly our problem, I seem to fall pregnant easily but keeping the pregnancy is not so simple! I'm glad you finally had success. I feel like the joy has been completely removed from all of this and I'm sat worrying when I should be thinking of this as the happiest times of my life. I feel guilt and terror all at one time.

I've had 2 miscarriages too. Sending you love and best wishes for your pregnancy

I had three MC before DS1. Was prescribed progesterone and carried DS1 and DD to full term. Had another miscarriage and then went on to carry DS2 and DS3 full term (again with progesterone). Have you asked your doctor for some? Am rather superstitious about it now.

Good luck, hope this pregnancy sticks. Xxx

@TheMonkeyMummy I have asked when I had my last mc about that and aspirin but they said they don't do any testing etc until I've lost 3 :-(

I've just done another test tonight as I've been paranoid about symptoms all day and it's the strongest line yet. I'm being ridiculous. With my first mc I had loads of symptoms and lost the baby so I need to just relax and stop symptom spotting 😩