Long time lurker here.
So I'm in my 20s and I've spent pretty much my whole life being a loner. I did have friends all throughout school and best friends but I was never anybody else's best friend (that sounds childish but you know what I mean!) i never did fit in at school. I tried really hard but never looked quite right or liked the right stuff etc.
When I got into my late teens I had a boyfriend and I just hung out with him and his friends but none of them really liked me, his parents didn't like me... we dated for a few years then I got pregnant and we split up and I just went back to having no friends which wasn't as bad because I had a baby to put all my time and love into.
But now I'm older I have started to think a lot more about how I just never have friends. I have one best friend who I don't see often as she lives far away and she would probably think I was a freak if she knew I saw her as my best friend!
It's not like I'm a social recluse or anything, I go out a lot and always have done but I can just tell nobody really likes me! Two of my siblings suffer from Aspergers and always say they suspect that I do. Maybe this could be something to do with my lack of friends? I don't know.. it just gets me down a lot now.
I've been at my current job a year and everyone who works there is very good friends and they go out for work do's etc- and I tried to talk to them all and be friendly but not creepy but they just always looked at me weird. I talk to a couple of the girls there but that's about it!
What's wrong with me!