So depressed and sick of life

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A quick run down...

I'm nearly 25, I have two beautiful, amazing children who are 3 and 5. The youngest is in nursery a few days a week and the eldest is now at school. Both are happy and healthy and loving life.

I, on the other hand, am not. I'm so fucking depressed with life I just don't know what to do anymore. I suffer from PTSD, borderline personality disorder, depression and anxiety. I'm already on anti-depressants, I'm seeing a therapist and a life coach.

I'm a full time stay at home mum with a controlling partner who I am completely financially dependent on. I do have a car, but I live in the middle of nowhere with no real close friends or family.

I'm in a depressive rut, I'm on auto-pilot. I dread the days and the weeks as they're all the same and I just feel like I'm not going anywhere in life.

I know I sound very woe is me, but have any of you been in a situation like this? How did you get out of it?

You will have to leave, if not sooner, then later. You're only young; can you carry on like this for the next 50 years?

If he threatens to hurt himself, that's his choice. He's a grown-up, and older than you. Not your responsibility.

I had a long conversation with the counsellor in my workplace about a friend who was threatening to do more than hurt herself and I was exhausted with the friendhip and wanted to back off.

She put it so much better than I ever could but the bottom line is that nobody is responsible for anybody elses action and shouldn’t tailor their own choices around another person’s threats.