I've NC for this as very outing and can be linked to my other posts. However a few of you may be able to work out which username I usually post under.
A nice happy thread and to give a boost to people who are struggling.
I've been quite physically unwell lately and feeling sorry for myself after being diagnosed with a bowel disease.
After having a really shitty few months it dawned on me today that I really should be proud of myself and shouldn't be sitting here wallowing in self pity. I've been feeling quite sad and low the last couple of weeks and really beating myself up about silly things that really don't matter.
I had a pretty traumatic childhood and spent a lot of my time in foster care growing up. I was sexually abused from a very young age and it wasn't until I was 18 that I managed to pluck up the courage to report the crimes against me to the police. This ended in an 11 year prison sentence for the person who abused me. I feel proud for that. I fought him and I won.
Last year I was admitted to an eating disorders unit after suffering for over half my life with anorexia. At this time last year I weighed just under 5 stone and was not in a good place mentally. I am now at a very healthy weight and each day gets easier.
This time last year I was a drug addict. I was addicted to most prescription meds and also street drugs, crack cocaine, cocaine, amphetamines etc (think £350 per week habit) there wasn't a day that went by that I wasn't off my head or on this planet.
At the end of this month I will be one whole year clean of any form of drug, prescription or otherwise.
This time last year I had no friends, I had no family and I had no hope. My world was in complete darkness.
Today I realised that I have a lot of family around that I have rebuilt relationships with, I have a handful of amazing and supportive friends and an absolutely wonderful partner who I absolutely adore.
This time last year I attempted suicide on numerous occasions due to me feeling like it was the only way out of my horrific existence and sitting here today I feel like I am living the life I've always wanted to have.
I am happy, I am in love and I am clean. I am rid of the disease that controlled my life and I honestly could not feel more proud of myself if I tried. I am absolutely bursting with pride at how much I have managed to overcome and I think it's ok to show myself a little bit of self love. It goes to show that if you really want to change and make your life better then you really can.
Please tell me your stories of what you are the most proud of. What have you done that gives you a little sense of pride every time you think about it.
Would be nice to hear some happy stories of self love and appreciation. 