I was engaged to a wonderful man who I still adore, I can’t talk about him without tearing up and despite breaking g up over a year ago still cry myself to sleep over the break up occasionally 
I ended it when I was in a very very bad place with my mental health and totally in self destruct mode.
I’ve finally summed up the courage to ask him if he’d mind meeting to talk, and he said he was happy to sort a date next month. I feel sick with nerves and dreading the rejection even though it was my fault.
Aibu to really hope something comes of this or for my sanity shall I not go through with it.