Some of you might remember me from my thread before 😀 I'm just writing this to thank everyone for their support on their thread and give people a bit of an update.
Now I know my thread before annoyed a few people and if this does the same Im sorry, this isn't my intention. Its just that people really seemed to want me to succeed and seemed to care. I just want to thank you for the support - I perhaps didn't say it enough and without it I wouldn't be where I am now.
I'm not perfect, or better yet. For a start I've gone from cocodamol to dihydrocodeine so in a way it's gotten worse. But I have made steps towards it. I've been to my go and have been referred to the local drug and alcohol service. I've told my friend the truth. I'm still lying to my parents. But I've reached out for help.
I'm nowhere near better. I'm still using for a start. But I can see hope for the future. I've made that first, real, scary, step. I don't know what the future holds obviously but I'm getting help. That's a massive thing to me, especially as I was so set against it, and I think with a bit of support I might be able to get well again.
I just wanted to give the people who invested into me, a bit of an update. Your words didn't go unnoticed. I know the thread was closed under less than ideal circumstances, but nonetheless I appreciate people taking the time out to talk to me. The majority of people were so helpful and it was helpful just to have a sounding board and to talk about things.
I've read the messages back and I was quite stubborn and in denial. Even though there were reasons behind that and I can't apologize for my feelings, I will apologize for the worry I'm sure I made some of you feel. I also want to apologize for the fact that I didn't thank you enough. Because the truth is your kind words and sometimes straight talking, no doubt helped me.
Sorry for the massively soppy post. I just wanted to let people know how I'm doing, and again to thank you