I'm quite fed up with work atm. I've been in the role for 6 years but feel I've lost my way a bit - not exactly sure what my purpose is or that anyone really pays much attention to what I'm doing/producing. I feel like colleagues are doing much of my work already and better than me. I have a good line manager but she works with the rest of my team at HQ which is some distance away. And I like my colleagues where I am but don't feel very supported. I'm PT (3 days a week) and while I definitely don't want to be FT I quite often feel out of touch with what's going on and tbh it's part of my role to know exactly what's going on!
My job doesn't light me up - but being in the garden, outside, among nature, growing plants - that's what I LOVE.
I'm making small steps towards giving myself the option of working in this area - studying horticulture, blogging/writing, selling a few plants - but I'm impatient and at the moment I wish I could just chuck in all the crappy, stressy office work and just be in the garden - any garden! - all day long.
It's not possible or realistic for me to do this now, but I just feel 'meh' about work at the moment and want to take some kind of action! I want to spend my days doing something I love, not something which makes me feel 'meh'.