Ok, apologies in advance if this turns into a long post. I don't want to drip feed but equally don't want to ramble.
I'm currently on maternity leave with DS3 (6 weeks). Professionally i am a very confident person and will chat to anyone, lead school assemblies, have parents and other professionals in my office to discuss matters and have even been known to stand up to Ofsted on occasion. However, this is an act and actually I am an incredibly shy person and in my personal life I have little interaction out of drooping DS (8) off at school.
When DS1 was a baby, I tried really hard to attend a baby group but lasted 3 weeks as I found it clique and intimidating, I struggled to talk to other mums and found no one would talk to me. With DS2 I attended a baby massage class which was good (I think because there was a focus for me to concentrate on) and occasionally I would stay and try to mingle at the baby weigh in group but on most occasions, nerves got the better of me and I would leave as soon as he had been weighed.
I really want to try with DS3, it's the first time we've been in the financial position of being able to afford me taking a year off work which is a long time to be isolated. I've found a group local to me and the Facebook page looks lovely. But I'm really scared, what if I get ignored by the other Mums? How do I put myself out there and be brave at my first session?
I've tried discussing with DH but he's as shy as me and doesn't understand why I would want to put myself in a position I am uncomfortable in. I just don't want DS3 to get bored or not interact with other babies.
Please help! :)