To feel like this?

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I don't know what's wrong with me. In many areas I'm very lucky - I'm young, own my own home (shared ownership property with ex) and have a beautiful & healthy DS.

But in other areas I feel so down. I have barely my friends, and living alone is so terribly lonely. I work 3 days a week and I spend at least 3 of my 4 days off at my mums, or with my mum Just so I have someone to be near.
It sounds ridiculous, but also the recent infestation of giant spiders has really got me down too, cause I'm terrified of them but they are everywhere and there's no one around to help me.

Recently I have been seriously considering moving back to my mums with DS (she would be happy to have us but I haven't spoken to her about this I think she sometimes just thinks I'm being dramatic) but my parents are looking to move soon to downsize (they are mid 60s) and I feel like I would be jeopardising that if I went back.

I feel so torn because I don't wanna stop them moving but I also don't feel like I can carry on like I am either.

Any ideas/advice on what to do please??

Look for some hobbies and clubs, and ways to make friends. Sounds like you need to be more fulfilled and can't rely on your Mum for that. Join Meetup, or an app like Mush that's specifically for meeting other Mums. Good luck!

If you're lonely I think you should definitely discuss moving back in with your mum even if it's just for a while. If your mum is willing to babysit one night a week you could get out to a regular activity.
You sound as if you might be suffering from clinical depression so it would be worth visiting your GP to discuss how you feel.