...and not know what to do about it?
I feel silly posting this because i have a good job,a home and family so on the surface things probably seem okay but ive always had the sense i find life more of a struggle than others.
I struggle to get anywhere on time and always have...it doesn't matter how early i get up im pretty much always late. This has caused my issues at work before but luckily now im in a job where i can work flexible hours so it's not as noticeable.
I have a huge sense of underachievement despite having done well academically, and always procrastinate even at work as i feel i can't start because it's all too overwhelming and i wont make a good job of things- then when I've only got a few days left that pressure helps me to get going and i end up getting extremely absorbed and usually do a good job.
I struggle to listen...i can be having a conversation with someone and barely remember what they said which can be embarrassing...and so many people tell me i live in my own world and i do...i could happily sit thinking about things on my own for a couple of hours at a time.
I also feel anxious socially although i think i overcompensate and make more effort because im aware of this, and i do struggle to find most conversation interesting which sounds bad but that's why i can end up zoning out.
My partner gets so annoyed at me because im messy or ill start some housework then get distracted and start another job and forget to finish the last one, and before getting a diary on my phone i used to forget everything.
Every now and then i also get quite emotional when i feel i have too many social events / work stuff on and have a mini meltdown...although i usually recover the next day.
I feel different too and always have but never knew why. I have always been quiet.
I feel silly posting this as im not sure if i am just lazy and that all people suffer from this but just get on with it like i try to or if i genuinely could have a problem. Ive been reading a bit about adult add and much of it rings true with me.
Things always seem such a struggle that sometimes leaves me feeling miserable and like im putting in a lot of energy just to be normal and it's exhausting. However i feel like if i tell anyone about this they will just laugh and think im being stupid...maybe i am?!