Not really an aibu as I have other threads atm and I know I what you're all gonna say, even at this hour. But I'm using this as more as a therapy session.
My mum always drilled into me the importance of family, hence why I was The 'replacement husband' so to speak. Financially anyway. I hated mg younger sister for not turning up for Xmas because she was going against this "tradition" (now I understand why. I spent Xmas last year on my own as mum insisted on bringing her partner who has grabbed me twice. I was faced with the choice of making the day awkward for everyone or just avoid it. I chose the latter and spent Xmas alone.
Anyway you can see I have other threads where dm is irrational. The police have been involved but essentially I still just have the clothes on my back. I am sober (solely out because of the victim blaming by some other mners).
Not a single member of my family has stepped up. I've loaned them all money. Been there for them when they're stuck. And when I'm officially being abused by my own mother and being left homeless with the clothes on my back, they vanish. I feel sick. All I ever try and do is help them. My father even borrowed money off me last year (paid it back this year but beside the point). Why is no one there for me even for a rant? It's so one sided 