I have a fact find hearing in the family court coming up. Was supposed to be back in June but it got rescheduled to this month. So the worry and tension around it has been building for quite some time, even without the fact my violent, abusive ex is self representing and so will be questioning me himself that’s just an added bonus!
My friends, current dp and family are all rallying round trying to take my mind off it and keep me busy but I just want to be on my own. No one seems to get it.
They all think I need their support or that I’m so stressed by the case that I don’t know my own mind it seems. Especially dp.
He says I’m locking him out, but I’m not. I’m happy to talk about how I’m feeling and what not but I would just like some time by myself for a bit. Just me so that I’m not trying to be whatever it is all these people are expecting of me. So I can just be me.
I do have my dc with me 24/7 but once they’re in bed I would like some peace and quiet and alone time.
Is that weird? Am I abnormal? Everyone seems to think I should want to be surrounded by people right now when quite frankly I can’t think of anything worse.