Those of you whom have read my other recent posts know that I have bipolar and depression/anxiety and the last few weeks had what I thought was a breakdown but was mostly due to taking the contraceptive pill and some stress in my life.
Anyway I am much much better but tomorrow my mum is going on holiday for 2 weeks and I'm in bits crying about it. She's pretty much my whole support system and she's been living with me for 3 weeks while I got better. My dad works away but comes home at weekends but he doesn't really understand and I'm scared of being alone every night, I get very anxious when I'm alone and I'm scared I might fall to pieces when she goes. She really needs this holiday as it's been so hard for her to take care of me and my kids for some of it but I dreading it.
I know I sound pathetic, 35 and can't be without my mum but I struggle with my kids a lot and Altho I'm better I'm still not 100% and my mood is still up and down. I do get the crisis team checking on me every few days but it's the comfort of having someone there to help me that I will miss and I'm worried I won't cope alone 😢