My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer over the summer and is having a mastectomy soon. Thankfully it was caught very early and considered very treatable but it has knocked me for six. The thing that is bothering me is that I've become obsessed that one day I'm going to die and that's it. I've suffered from depression before but never had this level of anxiety and panic. I've been to the doctor who has put me back on Sertraline and referred me for CBT.
She said it's normal to become depressed facing a parent's mortality but it's making me think of my own mortality and I feel like I'm just making this all about me. This is only in my head - Mum will never know this and I've been as supportive as I can. Am I being selfish or just in denial that one day I might lose my mum?