So this is my first post, and I'm only a young mum (just turned 18). I have some mental health problems, and have done for years now. I have a 10 month old daughter, and she is all good. We're with SS because I have a history of being an in-patient due to my mental health and they were concerned my difficulties could make it difficult to care for her. We were put on child protection before she was born, but because they had no concerns about how I care for her, they moved us down to child in need in June. In July I was assaulted, and it's made things really difficult for me. I can't sleep because of the nightmares, it's constantly in my head, and i feel as if I can't escape it. I was diagnosed with PTSD. Since the incident I tried to commit suicide twice. I'm exhausted and feel trapped all the time. I just wanted it to stop.I'm with a 24hr crisis team but they werent answering. SS came out to see me last week. I've been very open with both them, and my mental health team about what is going on in my head. However I haven't told my family about the attempts (other than my fiance). Purely because my parents get angry about this kind of thing, and tend to cut me off for weeks at a time. They don't understand my mental health. I tried to explain that I can't handle that on top of everything else right now. SW said she still has no concerns about my ability to parent my daughter, and she understands why the suicide attempts happened. However, if I don't tell my family about my suicide attemps, they will have to put my daughter back on child protection, and then review that because even on CP they can't force me to talk about my MH. Theyd have to discuss the possibility of court proceedings. NOT because I tried to commit suicide. But because I won't tell my mum and dad. Because not telling my parents puts my daughter at risk according to them.
They then said it's my choice. But it isn't is it. Legally yes, but it's either I tell my parents or my daughter potentially gets taken away from me. They also threw in that I need to decide by tomorrow morning (calling me at 9am), as we have a family meeting next monday and it "may accidentally slip out in conversation". And that im "being inconsiderate of the uncomfortable situation I'm putting them in" when they're now doing the same thing..
Am I just being delusional or is this unfair. I'm an adult, it should be my decision but it seems like I have no choice!