I have debilitating Fibromyalgia.
I cannot raise my arms above my shoulders most of the time. Someone is now having to wash my hair and style it for me.
I now need help to get in and out of my bath/shower, of which I'm soon going to be renovating to fit my needs.
Apologies for being vulgar, but there are times where I cannot bend or move enough to change a bloody sanitary product. Yesterday I was in tears to my DMum because I was leaking but physically couldn't change myself. She couldn't get to me quickly so an amazing friend came over just to help me sort myself out. That wasn't just due to pain, for that I might've been able to bite through. But physically, I cannot do much when I'm at my worst because of muscle weakness/stiffness.
I recently dropped a pan of boiling water that wasn't even that heavy. Luckily enough I missed my own body and it dropped on the floor entirely.
If I'm visiting someone or out and about, I need to now visit disabled loos at times just so there's something there I can hold onto to lower myself onto the toilet.
I can no longer attend work and I'm on long term sick, I have been for a few weeks. Luckily they have been brilliant and are a huge company that support me to the max. However, it means I can no longer afford my old car and I'm now left stranded without, unless I have my DMum to help me get from A to B.
I have had to get shoes I can slip on as there are some days I cannot pull shoes on, and most days I can't bend for long enough to tye laces
I have applied for PIP and just waiting for the form. I'm so worried about what the assessor at the face to face will be like. I'm so worried she/he will tell a pack of lies, which seems to be the case for so many genuine people.
AIBU to be scared?
I just don't know what to do anymore. I really need the financial assistance. My DMum is a God send and I'm lucky to bloody have her. I'd be gone for if I didn't, I'm not sure what I'd do. From the outside I look fine, just very sore if I try and walk on good days. On bad days, I cannot walk more than a few steps and need my wheelchair. On other days, I have crutches. I have a DS who I'm tremendously lucky to have so much help with. He is an amazing little boy and I feel like I'm letting him down. But I know I'm not, he's bright and happy.
I have been told to include with the form -
•GP letter explaining how my condition impacts me
• A diary (a week's worth), explaining how I've been each day and how my condition has impacted me
• Letter from a consultant (fingers crossed I can get this in time)
•Letter from my DMum explaining how she thinks my condition impacts me, and how she helps me, such as helping me prepare a basic meal, washing my hair, on bad days, dressing my lower half
I am 20 years old and I feel so devastated that this seems to be my life, for now. The condition has been with me since the age of 14. It gradually gets worse as I get older, it seems.
Some times I go through stages where I'm feeling fantastic but I'm then slowly but surely back to square one, often worse off.