To go out on my own

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Just one of those days today and I know that I'm being very petty.

I've got a 4 month old DS who was up every 2 hours last night and I'm on maternity leave until the end of the year.

We're living with my in laws for the next few months until our new flat is finished, but my SIL (16 months younger than my DH) lives here too. We get on fine, but she came in drunk last night maybe I'm a tad jealous haha and was SO loud. She was stomping around, slamming doors etc at midnight. I just laid in bed rolling my eyes, wishing for her to stop so that I could finally get some sleep as DS was woken up.

I've had a shit night's sleep and I am admittedly a wee bit grumpy 

I mentioned to my DH (who's a teacher, so is off for the school holidays) in jest that his sister was stomping around last night and this morning for work (she's just one of those loud people, means nothing by it, she's just loud) and he says 'well excuse her getting ready for work!'

I was just like  there's getting ready for work and there's being so loud that she woke up the baby that I'd just managed to get to sleep up twice.

Not to mention yesterday when one of those breast enlargement adverts were on TV... I said 'oh I wish!' and he said 'you don't need an enlargement, just a lift' (boobs are saggy after pregnancy, you know how it is...)

Am I BU to bugger off for a couple of hours on my own today? He's home. DS is happy and is of course now fast asleep...

I'm moody today about my post-pregnancy body and weight gain that I haven't bothered to sort out yet because I'm just exhausted constantly.

I know how pathetic I sound.

Can you go back to bed for a few hours?

Yup, but I'm laying in bed with the hump now like a child. I'm so pathetic

Does it make me a bad mother that I can't wait to go back to work?

I really love my child, he's great. I just want to feel like me again.

I also got asked the other day if I'm pregnant again! I'm not, I've just got a flabby Mum tum after a huge baby and eating for about 15 whilst pregnant...

It's hard when you haven't got your own space. I would go out and have some time to yourself, a wander round the shops and a coffee, go and see a movie, anything to give yourself a breather. It's understandable that it's making you grumpy, so some time out will help you tolerate it more.

Also, as DH is off can you get him to do the night so you can sleep? Mind you, I know when my husband did nights I still woke up anyway!

YANBU. And you are not pathetic. Your dh was unsympathetic. And it must be hard living with your in-laws when you have a new born.

Go out and buy yourself a really good cup of coffee and a slice of cake!

Then browse the shops and come back with a small treat for yourself like a lovely shower gel or a bunch of flowers.

Leave him to stew for a bit!

Why don't you go for a swim or a long walk, it'll help clear your head and make you feel more positive about yourself than cake will if you're feeling low about your weight