I’m mid thirties, happily married and about to start tying for a baby. I’ve also got a long term health condition that means that I’ve had to stop work and find it difficult to make plans as I know that I might not be well enough to keep them. When I’m with people they wouldn’t know that I’m sick and I think I’m viewed as a generally really positive and supportive person. I know that I’m not great at opening up to people, but the couple of times I’ve tried I feel mega awkward and like I’ve done the wrong thing.
I’ve moved a few times and, because I go through phases of being so exhausted that I can’t make contact with anyone, I’ve lost touch with many friends over the years. I only recently managed to make the break from my ‘best friend’ from school who just made me feel horrible every time we had contact, which is good but is one less friend in the mix.
I’ve seen loads on social media this morning about people being out last night. A few friends at a wedding and a big birthday meal for a group of friends we used to go out with lots when we lived in another city (lots of #squad type comments). It’s made me feel so lonely and inadequate.
I thought I’d ask and see if anyone has any stories of being in a similar position to me and getting to a position where they have friends? I feel like everyone has friends who they’ve had forever, or they want friends who’ll never say no to meeting up. Is it too late?!