Hello everyone, first time doing anything like this and first time I'll of spoken openly about the way I feel, so apologies if it's a bit of a rant. Here goes...
I have a beautiful 6 month old baby - my absolute world. The baby was planned and we tried for a number of years before we were lucky enough to fall pregnant. First 2 weeks after baby was born were amazing, partner was attentive and supportive. Everything felt perfect. Then a couple of months in it was apparent that I was doing literally everything. Partner works 5 days a week and is out of house for about 12 hours a day so I do spend a lot of time on my own with the baby (which I don't begrudge) and I understand that he's tired when he comes home. But so am I. I'm exhausted. But still, I do everything for the baby even when he's home.
If he does see to the baby, he gives him to me at the first sign of any crying or upset. He can't seem to handle him unless he's smiling and laughing and doesn't seem to really understand that I've had him all day every day and if he cries, I have to just get on with it. Like he should. Surely that's all part of having a baby?!! I did all the night feeds, even of a weekend. Partner did the odd one, but again if the baby wouldnt settle - it'd be down to me. He stays in the spare room all week so that his sleep isn't disturbed for work and I just feel so alone. I feel like we were so excited for our new life when we got pregnant, but now it's here it's just nothing like what I envisioned and i just feel like a single mum majority of the time.
I've tried talking to him about how I feel, but he gets really defensive about the fact he goes to work and feels like I'm calling him a bad father. When that's not the case. I just need more support and don't know what to do