Hi all. I'll start by saying I really do love my DS more than anything in the world, he is the best thing that ever happened to me. But the past few days I feel like I'm a complete failure as a (lone) parent. My son is only young (19 months) but I feel like it's all getting on top of me. I know he's still only little bit compared to his friends he doesn't listen, seems like he doesn't understand anything, climbs on everything doesn't play and throws everything he can get his hands on despite being asked/told not to and sometimes bites and kicks (only ever me, no one else) To top it all off recently he's started not eating. He's hungry, cause if I give him something I know he likes, he'll eat it but I don't wanna get in the habit of doing so. It sounds so petty writing this down. Mealtimes are almost hell on Earth.
He goes to Nursery 2 days a week and his dad sees him once a week for around 5/6 hours so not much input there I just feel like I'm drowning like I'm the reason he does (or doesn't do) all those things mentioned above or I've been too slack in teaching him stuff (I have honestly tried and continue trying) or I don't do enough with him. I get being on your own is hard and I've done it since day 1 as my and DSs Dad split when I was 8 weeks pregnant but I can't help but feel it shouldn't be this hard.
My family are heavily involved with both of us, my mum especially is brilliant I work part time 3 days a week and spend the majority of my time with her/at my parents house and my dad will often take him to the park etc I even get a break so it's not like I don't have any support and This is where I feel like a failure there are people out there who have it so much worse and do so much better and I feel guilty for feeling this way.
Sorry that was so long so I'll shut up now but Any brilliant ideas on how to move past this please?