Or am i justified to feel this way

[Escumator]

So back ground first ;
Dh - cheated multiple time in the past. Texts from other women, slept with other women, kid with another woman, been abusive.

I made the decision to stay everytime and it feels as though he has changed. 3years later since the last incident. Hes a good dad most of the time. He works hard has 9 to 5 and does bits on the side to make more money. BUT im still unhappy. He moans at the kids, doesnt 'play' gets irrtated bytoys. Leaves a mess everywhere. Expects dinner made clothes ironed and washed every single day. Even if he is eatin seperate from me a kids im expected to make it at 9pm when he decides hes hungry. I NEVER get time to myself. I dont have friends because i dont get the opportunity to make any. He goes to the gym he goes to football he gets to do this and that the most i do is see my mum of an evening after ive put kids to bed and made him dinner.

Every one raves about how hard working he is. They dont no the bulshit. I dont no how i feel anymore. Im so bored. And fed up and depressed. but i also have bipolar. So im thinking maybe this is just part of my mental.health makin me feel.this way?

My family all think hes amazing because he works so hard

But he's not amazing is he? He's a cheating demanding moaning scumbag.

So tell your family what he's like and chuck the fucker out

Your expectations are alarmingly low.

This relationship has run it's course. You would be happier without him.
He may work hard and provide materially for the family but it sounds as if you are not getting any real love or kindness from your partner.

So tell your family to live with him, feed him, wash his underwear, tolerate his cheating and moaning.

I suspect they wouldn’t find him so amazing if they knew about all that.

I woke up this.morning to crumbs all over the kitchen side. Cushions on the floor chocolate bar wrapper on the floor chocolate bar wrappers on the kitchen side glasses left on the floor. I just felt like getting in my car and driving off the bridge. Its not.difficult isit. To put ur rubbish in the bin. BUT when i say something, he moans at me. I felt unwell in the weak i went to bed at 10pm on friday evening. And he moanedni went to bed so early

If the house is in your name get some advice on getting him out, you don't have to put up with this, you don't need any reason other than its not for you, it really doesn't matter what others think and your kids will be much better off having the role model of a strong mother who won't take shit, you can do it, it's scary or can be hard but it will be so worth it.

He adds nothing but misery to your life. I bet you would feel a whole lot more relaxed and better in general without this waste of space around. So what if he works hard. That should be a given not an amazing exception to be revered. Bin him off.