To be terrified of the unknown?

[MakeYouSoSureAboutIt]

Have been TTC for 19 months. 20 cycles. I had an early miscarriage late last year.

We have decided to start looking at fertility assessments to find out if something else is going on. But I’m terrified.

I don’t think I can mentally handle infertility but I can’t continue going on this path of not knowing.

This month, I had a faulty test and got a faint positive so I’m even more depressed than normal, with the arrival of my period.

I suppose this is a more of WWYD? Carry on TTC and let what happens happen or bite the bullet and do the tests and find out if something is wrong?

But if something is wrong how do people handle the news? I don’t think I can take any more bad news.

Don't be scared. Go and get the assessments started so they can see if there are any issues.

I was told I would not have children, but then they tried a new operation following further assesments and I have now have 5 perfect healthy kids. With no need for IVF.

I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage.

Ate you sure it was a faulty test? Some people still bleed when they're pregnant.

The rational side of me knows it’s better to know than not know, that way if something is wrong we can’t start looking at our options. But I’m scared of losing the tiniest amount of hope I have left.

Yep, definitely faulty. One BFP followed by 3 BFN’s and then period. I’m not pregnant.