To mourn my fertility even though I'd rather poke my eyes out than have another kid?

[MadMum101]

Hysterectomy looming.

I backed out a few days before the OP 2 years ago at the age of 44 as I decided it was too 'final' and I wanted to stay intact in case I wanted another child .

I have 4 already who drive me nuts and have an extremely stressful life dealing with them - teens, twins, SN.

I absolutely do NOT want another child and I doubt its possible at 46 anyway but I am suddenly feeling extremely sad that I won't ever have another baby.

Is this normal?

Yes I think so. I don't like other people's kids but I'm still sad I wont be a grandmother.

Natural to mourn your loss of fertility even though your head says no.
I have 2 children and for various reasons do not want a 3rd, but will be emotional as menopause kicks in as I would be if I had a medical reason for hysterectomy or another similar medical proceedure.