AIBU to still have hope?

[Lostmymind26]

I'm due AF in 3 days. Disclaimer I have just had a mc a few months ago and I am desperate to be pregnant before my due date, even more so as my sister has just announced her pregnancy today and I'm struggling.

So I did a test yesterday afternoon (5 days before period due 🙈) and got a faint but definitely there second line 😁 I then did a second on the night and got a line again :-)
However this morning I did a test hoping to see progression and there is no line :-( I've done another about an hour ago (tried not to drink anything for a couple of hours) and it was bfn although if I squint and hold it up to the light I can see something that looks like a second line.
I know it could have been a chemical pregnancy and I just feel so sad :-( I've already had a mc at 12 weeks this year and a chemical just after that.

I know I've lost the plot, I'm googling and reading all sorts, I'm peeing on sticks every five minutes! I just can't cope. Please help.
Do I have any hope of this being a good outcome?

I don't even know what I'm expecting people to respond as I know the only answer is to wait. I'm just tired of this mindfuck. I'm young and healthy, I never thought it would be this hard and I'm just so desperate to give my husband a child and to have a baby in our house to love. We have a puppy and he takes my mind off of things by making me smile but I desperately want a little boy or girl and keep imagining them running around the park together :-(

Thank you all for even reading this (if you got this far in my pity party!)

I would not expect progression on a test in less than 24 hours tbh.
Good luck op, fingers crossed.

Oh OP it’s so hard waiting for that line. I can’t say anything useful but here’s a big hand hold and crossed fingers and toes 🤞🏻and some non alcoholic wine and cake

I hope you get some good news. I've been where you are and it's so hard. It took us over a decade but now our gorgeous boy is here I always say if it had happened any of the other times it wouldn't have been him. Crossing my fingers for you

Thanks ladies :-) tbh if I hadn't seen progression and just a line the same id have been happy. Now im resolved to think it's a chemical. I can't cope with all this anymore tbh, thinking about seeing the gp on Monday as I really feel depressed. Don't feel like going out, being grumpy with husband, just want to sit in my bed and cry and eat crap!!

Put down the pee sticks! Did you use a different brand?

Testing so early is always going to run the risk of inconsistent results. It really is best to sit on your hands until the first day of your missed period as that is when tests are more reliable. Although I really do know that is easier said than done. But keep peeing on sticks is not going to help you, you are either pregnant or you aren't and peeing on sticks won't change the outcome. I know honestly really know how difficult it is though, I've been trying for a baby for 10 months now, although that is no time compared to how long some people try for. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself, and I truly hope you get some good news soon

Stay strong, I mc and now pregnant - I conceived 2 months after the mc it can happen, and you apparently are more fertile afterwards. However I don't want to give you false hope this time round, I just want to give you reason to stay positive. It's a horrible waiting game, I know.

PS don't test this late in the evening! Test in the mornings!! Your diluted by the end of the day.

I know you are right. I should just get on with my life and ignore this until after AF then I'll definitely know. I just can't stop thinking about it ☹️ I used frer and a cheap internet. Got bfp on both and now bfn on both. I tried not to drink all day so I could test tonight then realised how ridiculous that is if I actually am pregnant :-( I think I'm waiting for someone to come and say oh this happened to me and I had quadruplets 😂 I just feel so down.