To be slightly disappointed I didn't bump into my ex?

[fluffernutterbutter]

Yes, actually I'm being a total and vvvvu, but I've just come back from a weekend at an event with my wonderful, gorgeous family.

The city we were in is the last known whereabouts of my only other truly serious relationship. We broke up well over a decade ago and he was vile and a CF to the nth degree. Last I had heard he had gone to prison - yeah, that bad.

So why am I feeling slightly upset I didn't bump into him?

Tbh i think I'm probably just a bit up to my eyeballs in parent life and perhaps mooning over the frivolity and irrational behaviour of my youth. I don't ever think you really get closure on some of these things either.

Please tell me it's just some weird hormonal thing and his memory will fade back into the ether sharpish?

Hope so. Anyway maybe he's safely away in HMP

It was on a smallish charge so no doubt he has been free for a while now. I feel a bit out of sorts about the whole thing really. I have an amazing, loving, caring husband who I adore. Part of me is thinking I just want to show off which isn't very healthy tbh. I've just had a bereavement as well so it's probably a bit of misdirected grief fueling it.