Could really do with some help, if anybody had any words of wisdom they can share with me and If they can make it to the bottom of what I'm about to write! Please try and stick with me.
I’m early 30s and married with 2 children.
At the moment I feel stuck in a rut completely. I am a professional but due to child care, only work 3 days a week. My husband works 50+ hours a week and we are like passing ships as he works evenings and weekends when we are at home. I love my life, I have been lucky enough to have all I have ever wanted in a nice home, husband and children.
However, every day I feel like I’m waiting for it all to come crashing down around me. It's as if I have impending doom lurking over my shoulder every second of every day. My mum had cancer over 10 years ago now, and as a result she can't swallow much (she's a laryngectomy) and as a result weighs barely 6 stone. Nothing stops her though as she is always busy and on the go, she really is like wonder woman in my eyes and I literally idolise her, we speak and see each other numerous times a day the same goes for my dad who is nearly 70. They both do so much for us and never want for anything in return. They are so giving even when they don't have much to offer.
So in relation to what I have said, I am worried sick of losing my parents, I think about it many times a day and its starting to rule my life. I worry I will lose my husband too as he is type 1 diabetic. Is this normal? I seem to constantly be worried to the point of being in tears and feeling sick about losing anybody I love and I really dont know what I can do to help myself being like this.
Sorry for the long post but needed to get it all off my chest.