To feel I've never been young

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Ok small backstory.

I had my children very young and then one slightly older- I'm early 30s.
I basically went from secondary school to being a mother with responsibilities that every parent has and looking after our home. I've always worked,although not a career, I've always had a job.

My eldest 2 are now a bit older and I'm approaching mid 30s and feeling worn out and just .... older.... but I don't feel I've ever been young.

Having children young has never bothered me until now. I don't feel I ever really missed out on much... until now, although I don't know if or what I might of missed out on.

I was talking to my husband about it and he doesn't really understand what I mean.

Anyway, is anyone else in a similar situation or been though this?

My life is similar to yours but I feel the opposite
I left college at 18 had my dd at 19, 3 kids by the age of 24
I’m now 40, they are growing up and moving out
I feel like I still did all the young person things I went out at weekends/ parties had fun, I was lucky my dh didn’t mind being home with the kids or my mum babysat, we went on date nights etc
Now I feel the world is my oyster, 2 of my kids are technically adults now and my youngest not far off and pretty self sufficient
I’ve always worked part time but this last year I’ve upped my hours (I’ve not had a career just minimum wage jobs)
The mortgage is paid off, I have money, freedom and I still feel young
I feel sorry for people I know who are just starting their families/getting on the property ladder at 40
Try and take the positives you are young now, embrace it, when you’re 80 you’ll wish you were back in your 30’s
The only thing I feel I missed out on were holidays, we couldn’t afford to go abroad with 3 young children and I’ve never been on a “girls” holiday but I’m making up for it now

I know that’s not really what you asked but I thought maybe you could try and see things from another perspective
You’re probably at a time where you’re a bit in limbo, kids are older but still reliant on you, give it a few more years and the dynamics will change and you might feel better about things