I've been put in charge of a major change project at work. It's a seriously contentious piece of business with a lot of politics involved, trade union negotiations, complex operational issues and a lot of money. It has also dragged on for years and this is considered the last chance to fix it.
The problem is, as far as I can see I was only put in charge because I was 'there'. I have only a surface level experience of the area of business, and am really struggling to figure out what to do. I am directly answerable to our CEO and am feeling a lot of pressure because of that. I'm working crazy hours and genuinely can't think about anything else. I'm waking up at weird hours with feelings of dread and panic at what's going to happen that day, and even though I'm working long hours I feel like I'm not getting anything done, or at least not enough. In the middle of this our family suffered a bereavement which has hit us all very hard. I've been snappish with my DCs and hardly feel like I have any time for them right now.
I don't know what to do. I don't feel I am the right person for this, but feel like if I back out of this (or even go off sick) it will count against me down the road, and I don't want to disappoint anyone.
I'm not even sure what advice I'm asking for, but thought I had to get this out somewhere....