I've fallen into alcoholism again

[BrownTrowsers]

A year ago I stopped drinking. I was drinking most nights of the week to a level where I was drinking 5/6 cans of lager every thurs, fri, sat and Sunday night. Constant hangovers, constant daft behaviour, constant embarrassment.

Then all of a sudden I found I couldn't stomach it anymore, literally overnight I stopped. I lasted like this for around a year. Almost teetotal with the odd bottle of wine on a Saturday night. I didn't touch lager again.

Then the weather started warming up. Constant Facebook pics of people cracking open the cans, DH was constantly cracking open the cans and one day, I remember it clearly, he asked if I wanted one. It was a scortching hot day and I said "oh go on then, why not". That moment turned out to be the beginning of the slippery slope.

Now I'm back to on 5/6 cans everybody Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night and any excuse for the the other days. Like last Wednesday England were playing and that's the only excuse I needed.

I desperately need to stop. This morning I was meant to be attending a relaunch of gym classes, I can't go because if my hangover. I'm tired, I'm grumpy, I'm getting fat (again) I just want to stop!!! So why can't I? Any tips?

If DH would stop it would be easy as they wouldn't be in the house but he won't

You don’t drink mom-wed - what’s different on those days?

Because I don't work Friday so to me, weekends start on a Thursday night

It's a really difficult position to be in when a partner drinks.
Come over to the brave babes battle bus on relationships? Ongoing support thread.
Have you considered AA?
Books that helped me: Annie Grace this naked mind, the Jason vale never drink again. for you

Sounds like your dh has a problem too. Is that right? If so, does he recognise it? It will be extremely hard for you to quit drinking with an unsupportive partner.

You are obviously unhappy with the amount you are drinking but you do not sound like an alcoholic to me. You may be alcohol dependent though.

The key I think is cutting down first. Either the amount of cans or the days you drink. Replace those drinks with something lovely - a posh soft cocktail type drink or juice. Going back to the gym is a good idea as you will fill your evening doing something else. You and your dh could try to do other things together too such as the cinema or long walk when the weather is nice. Something not involving alcohol

I’ve started drinking fever tree aromatics tonic over ice. No alcohol obviously. It tastes like you are having a cocktail I think. Mega refreshing too.