Bit of a ramble, but struggling and nowhere really to vent. Fully prepared for a few ‘life’s shit sometimes just get on with it etc etc’ (this is mumsnet afterall 😬) comments but here we go anyway...
This is currently a list of everything I have going on (in no particular order);
I’m currently pregnant with number 3....working full time, DD (4) about to start school but has suspected behavioural problems. She hasn’t been formally assessed yet, but I’m taking her to the GP this week to ask for this and try and get some support. She goes into violent rages very easily and with the best will in the world we've tried everything. We don’t let her get away with crap behaviour and would say we are very firm with her in general when needed. However, I don’t shout and am very calm with her when she does this. I have to walk away and leave her to it so she doesn’t hurt me. I physically have to lift her (which is hard at 6 months pregnant) and put her into her bedroom as this is the only safe space. Tonight after a particularly bad episode she tried to break down the door with her Trunki. She’s actually done quite a bit of damage to the wall and door although suppose that’s the least of my worries
DS (1) doesn’t sleep very well and hasn’t since birth. He wakes very early and we’ve tried everything changing nap schedule, cutting out afternoon nap, moving bedtime forwards/backwards, black out blinds/curtains, supper before bed so his tummy is definitely full so he isn’t waking up because of hunger. He wakes up on average between 4-5am EVERY day. Hubby and I are physically wrecked! So much so I’ve been puking regularly due to exhaustion. My food just won’t stay down it’s a mixture of extreme stress and tiredness. I was signed off work for a week last week, but actually found it more stressful being at home and didn’t manage to get much rest at all!
My Sis is currently in Hospital at 24 weeks pregnant with placental insufficiency...it’s touch and go with the baby as she is so tiny and they are taking each day at a time hoping to get her to a certain date/size before they can safely deliver her. I’m worried about both my sister who is in very poor health herself and also my little niece. Whilst the family (myself included) are remaining positive it’s a real worry for everyone. This is all happening 100s of miles away as my Sis lives at the opposite end of the country 😢
I’m learning to drive and my test is in 4 weeks time. I’ve hated every moment of learning. To drive as I was in an accident as a teenager and as a result suffer with terrible anxiety. It’s taken me a year to get test ready, but I’m so scared of messing it up my nerves are totally shot to pieces. I have no idea how I’m going to cope with the test. I just don’t feel like I’m in the right frame of mind IYSWIM.
AIBU to feel like I’ve totally lost the plot? Feel like I’m trudging through mud daily just to get through. At 6 months pregnant I’m physically knackered too.
Not really sure what to do....🤷🏻♀️😢