To have a little cry right now

[LessOfaMess]

Dh has recently had his vasectomy results and he's good and sterile. It was a joint decision and it was the right decision for our family..
But now my period has arrived and I can't help but have a little cry that it will never happen again, even though I really don't want it to. We can't afford another child. I had serious complications in my last pregnancy and we both feel we need to focus on the ones we have...

But still. A little solitary weep in the bath. AIBU?

Oh bless you of course not. It’s only natural to have a little grieve for a different life, I think a little cry in the bath (and a big cry if you want!) is perfectly reasonable.

Awww I'd feel the same way. Its ok. Go ahead. X

@Badgerthebodger thank you, I have my wine and my bubbles.
I'm not sad. Just a bit lost with it. I always wanted more but close age gaps and an horrifically traumatic pregnancy and labour put a stop to it for me.
I might be a bit sad

You’re allowed to feel whatever you feel. It’s ok to be sad, it’s completely understandable. You’ve made the choice for sensible reasons but I’m not sure hearts always understand sensible decisions. Wine and a bath sounds lovely though!